“Out, damned spot!” Exorcising ghosts of marathons past at the Los Angeles Marathon

Ok, so the Macbeth quote isn’t the _best_ way to make my point, but I’m behind in this blog, there is a lot coming up to tell you about, and if I don’t write this now, with 20 minutes before I have to head into work, it’ll never get done and I may as well shut this whole enterprise down. Caveat Lector.

Long story short: my plan to train to run the LA Marathon at 8:45 per mile pace so that I could comfortably lead the pace at 10:00 per mile was a major success. As you recall from the previous post, I’m a pace leader for the LA Roadrunners. Along with four other “PL’s,” as we’re called, I worked with and trained around 20 or so runners to complete the marathon in 4:22:00. My organization, consisting of around a hundred or so PL’s, a thousand athletes, and six months of early Saturday mornings, is the official training program for the marathon. You may think that getting up ninety minutes earlier on a Saturday morning than on a weekday to lead our athletes on long runs in the rain, wind and cold would be a hardship, but it’s not. It’s an absolute joy.

But there is a bit of pressure. You have to be in shape enough to help your athletes through the tough parts of the course, usually starting around mile 16 or so (where you enter Beverly Hills, oddly enough. I call that section “The Valley of the Shadow of Death,” which will factor into this post in a little bit). If you are struggling yourself, you aren’t in a position to help your athletes when they need it most, let alone hold pace. Trust me; I know from experience. I struggled my first two years alongside my fellow runners, and while I was able to provide support, it was difficult for me. Both years, I struggled at about the 22 mile mark, right about when the course drops you downhill to the finish line. I was still able to help people out, but I felt like I could have done more. The problem was, most likely, that I was using the LA Marathon as a training run for marathons further down the road. Looking “beyond the mark,” in a manner of speaking.

I decided to make a change. I still have two or perhaps three marathons this year, one of which will be my Boston Qualifier attempt. But this year, instead of thinking about them, I focused only on LA. I trained this year to run the LA Marathon at 8:45 per mile.

Which meant that all my tempo runs were run at 7:45-8:00 pace, and that my easier runs during the week were run closer to 9:00 pace instead of my “I can run forever” pace of 9:40.

And…. I added more mileage.

Oddly enough, the image I had in my mind of feeling good and giving my athletes my full attention at mile 20 when they needed it wasn’t my motivational image.

It was Beverly Hills. The Valley of the Shadow of Death.

It’s mile 16 of the marathon. All the roller coaster climbing out of downtown LA is done. Gentle rolling hills through Echo Park and into Hollywood, then at about the half way point, two major downhills into West Hollywood and a lateral over to Burton Way which takes you into 90210 town. The roadbed is exposed, and it’s getting hot. The race is now Serious, capital S. There’s an uphill, the angle of which fully exposes the back of your body to the glaring sun. It’s tough.

That’s what motivated me when I felt like I could skip a workout. That’s what got my butt out the door, even in the rain.

I felt a great deal of trepidation going into the race on Sunday. I’ve run LA seven times by now, and I knew where all the problems were. I hoped all my hard work would be enough. I prayed it would be. I worried I had done too much and that I was fatigued.

I needn’t have worried. Beverly Hills was a breeze. I’m sure the cooler weather helped a bit, but I felt strong. The dreaded nausea, cramps, weakness, whatever I was expecting, never appeared. We passed the Mormon Temple in Westwood and rounded the corner onto Sepulveda Blvd at mile 20. Feeling a little weak by this point, but other than that, fine.

A runner caught my attention. He asked me to talk to him, talk him through the wall that he was hitting. I don’t remember what I told him, but I know it helped. We ran for another half mile before he fell back to, hopefully, run a bit slower and not slow to a walk.

A second runner caught my attention at mile 23, right before the big downhill to the finish. He just asked me to talk to him, to say anything to distract him from what he was going through. I told him about a little mental game I play when I get tired in a race. I pretend that the race is over and now I’m just looking for my car. It got a bit of a smile from him, but I could tell he was really feeling it. He ducked behind me to get to a water stop and I lost him in the crowd. I sped up a bit to catch up with my fellow PL teammates, Russ and Julie, who were about a hundred yards ahead. I kept my eye out for anyone else from the LA Roadrunners (or anyone, actually) who I could be of assistance to. But by that point, at mile 24-25, there is very little chatter, just silence and dogged determination. “Let’s get this thing done!”

I crossed the finish line with Russ and Julie, thinking to myself that I could even run a bit further if I wanted to, but my legs took that opportunity to turn to concrete, and I settled for the zombie walk to the LA Roadrunners recovery tent to enjoy some snacks and commiserate with my fellow athletes, trade war stories and congratulate those who finished, especially those who just completed their very first marathon, not thinking or believing for a second six months earlier that they could even toe the start line and accomplish a major life goal.

Because that’s what the marathon is about.

And now, time to look ahead…!

Ventura Half Marathon 2018

Ventura Half 2018

Ventura Half Marathon 10-21-18

So, the Ventura Half Marathon, October 21, 2018.

I originally signed up for the full marathon shortly after running Mountains 2 Beach on Memorial Day, but I didn’t realize at the time how much I simply wanted to run for fun this last summer instead of training for yet another race (more on taking a mental break in a future post). Switching to the half marathon was an easy decision, and as a bonus it provided valuable insight into my current marathon fitness.

By the way, choosing to spend the night before the race at a motel in Ventura instead of arising at zero dark thirty and making the seventy mile schlep is one of the Great Decisions that have made my life worth living. It is right up there with contributing weekly to my 401k and not saying anything to offend my mother. There is a world of difference between getting up at 5:00 AM, which a reasonable person understands is morning (albeit a tad early) and an hour and a half earlier, which is quiet enough to make you wonder if civilization exists at all.

At five in the morning, I can find my way to the shuttle bus, talk about race strategy with anyone who will listen, and do a bit of warm up before the starting gun goes off. At three thirty, I can’t find my pants. A hundred and twenty dollars well spent. Trust me on this one.

The Ventura Half is almost all downhill (though the 600 foot drop is not, to abuse a brand name, Revel-ly). Oddly enough, that worked against me for the first few miles, as I wasn’t properly warmed up until I was about three miles in. But running down the Ojai bike path through the arboreal paradise of the Ojai valley is its own reward, and crossing the wooden San Antonio Creek bridge is, if I may say, a delight.

Of course, all good things come to an end at some point. The path flattens out and enters an oil soaked industrial wasteland, a reminder that the good ol’ USA doesn’t yet value alternative energy as much as other civilized countries do. Even then, the path winds its way through all that in a manner that makes you want to spread your arms out and yell “wheeee!” as you make every bend in the road. And all too soon, the bike path ends, and you turn a few corners and jump a few curbs as you enter Ventura proper and cross the finish line at Mission Park just a few blocks away from where I spent the night in not-getting-up-at-3:30 peace.

1:48:07. Not bad. Not my best, especially since I hadn’t run more than twice a week for the previous month, but it shows me where my marathon fitness is right now. I have a lot of road between today and a Boston Qualifier at the Mountains 2 Beach marathon next Memorial Day weekend.

But I know exactly where to start.

Jesus Hill

LA Marathon 2014 Mile 21

Date? March 23, 2014.

Place? Just off Ohio Avenue in West Los Angeles, on the main road that snakes its way through the sprawling VA Hospital complex. Specifically, mile marker 21 of the Los Angeles Marathon, just before the Wilshire Blvd under crossing that begins the short but brutal ascent named after a century old wooden chapel that sits at the top of the hill.

Jesus Hill.

Time? Around 10:00 AM, give or take.

Situation? My second ever full length marathon, and I vowed that it would be my last.

The temperature at the start line was a balmy 70 degrees, and that was before the Sun came up. Our LA Road Runners pace leader, a multiple Iron Man veteran named Adrian, had warned us earlier in the week that despite hope that the heat wave would moderate in time for Sunday’s race, heat was the most likely condition we would encounter on race day.

He was not wrong.

The attached photograph shows me doing my best to keep a stiff upper lip by clowning for the race photographer as we all struggled up Jesus Hill. But inside, I was dying. Physically, mentally and emotionally. The temperature hovered somewhere in the mid eighties. I was out of water, and not sure I could even hold any down should it be offered to me at the despairingly few water stops along the last 5 miles of the course.

The previous year, during my first ever marathon, I wondered if I was, in fact, dying as I crested the hill and turned left toward San Vicente Blvd and the Mile 22 marker. No, I wasn’t dying, though I didn’t remember feeling as physically exhausted since a recent flu that kept me bedridden for a week. I was merely bonking.

But now, I think I was. I had never experienced the pain of pushing my body past its breaking point before, but I was suffering up that infamous hill again, telling myself that a mile and a half lay between me and the surely cooling ocean breezes that would no doubt greet all of us as we descended to the finish line on Ocean Avenue.

The breeze never came. Instead, I gave way to the pain and began to walk, my anger rising by the minute because I wouldn’t break four hours in the marathon, and because walking hurt just as much as running did. And that I still preferred walking.

I finished the 2014 edition of the Los Angeles Marathon in 4:14 and change, a minute slower than my first ever effort. I grabbed a water bottle and drained its contents, allowed a sympathetic volunteer to drape a medal over my neck, and then grabbed an ice towel and wept into it for five clock minutes.

As I slowly rode my bike home (just a few miles from the finish), I began to think two thoughts:

  • I probably would have done better if it wasn’t so hot, and
  • I’ll bet I can do better next year.

Because reason #3: I’m an idiot.